“Hey good girl, you got a heart of gold. You wanna white wedding and a hand you can hold, just like you should, girl. Like every good girl does, want a fairytale ending, somebody to love. But he’s really good at lying, yeah, he’ll leave you in the dust. Cause when he says forever, well it don’t mean much. Hey good girl, too good for him, better back away honey, you don’t know where he’s been.”
apparently i’m a hit with the british guys, but no more long distance relationships for me unless you’re a REAL HUGE AMAZING catch.
Not ready to see him being sweet and flirty and everything with another girl. For that girl to be someone I absolutely love and adore. I’m not ready for him to just move on like that. For him to find someone else when he told me numerous times he could never love anyone else. Makes me feel like a piece of trash, used up and thrown out.
I partially dealt with everything by telling myself he could never find anyone better than me. Sad thing is this chick is like amazing, like I strive to have as much godliness as her. She’s gorgeous as well. I feel like more trash.
I wish we were closer. I know once upon a time we were close, but why does it feel like a very vague memory. It’s not like it was years ago either, it was 2 months ago that I relied on You for every single thing. I can’t remember, I hate my humanness. I wish I always longed for You, I wish I didn’t think I didn’t really need to rely on You for everything. I always trick myself into thinking that You’ve fixed everything so now I can just leave you in the corner and go do whatever I want even if you frown upon it because I’m all good now. And then the whole process starts over again, I realize I’m still hurt and broken so I run back and so forth. Why can’t I just stay with You forever and always and stick to it. It frustrates me to no end. I’m trying but I always fall back into the same rut. Please help me.
- Evan Peters: You've been in a car accident. I'm your husband.
- Me: Ok.